My Life, Starring Dara Falcon - Brossura

Beattie, Ann

Brossura

ISBN 10: 0679781323 ISBN 13: 9780679781325

Casa editrice: Vintage, 1998

Riassunto

In her latest novel, the author of Another You combines intensely realistic description and an effortless command of mood to examine the treacherous difference between love and fascination--between what we know about other people and what we think we know. Dara Falcon is someone other people think they know. Charismatic and theatrical, she has no sooner arrived in a New England town than she is wreaking havoc in the lives of her new friend Jean and her family. As Ann Beattie follows Dara's antics, she braids subplots and vibrant characters into a work that is compassionate, tartly funny, and teeming with life.

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L'autore:

Ann Beattie lives in Maine and Key West, Florida. Her latest novel, Park City: New and Selected Stories will be published by Knopf in June 1998.

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I was stretched out on a lounge by the pool at a hotel in Key West when I found out the news about Dara Falcon. A pink-faced, pink-kneed man had left The New York Times behind as he slipped into his flip-flops for the walk to the elevator. Before he'd gotten ten steps away, I'd pulled his newspaper out from under the mattress pad and started flipping through. I hadn't seen a newspaper since I left Connecticut four days earlier, and I wouldn't have bought one, but the temptation of an abandoned Times was too great. I read the beginning of several articles on page one, but didn't turn to the jump pages. I looked at the book review, but the book didn't sound interesting, even though the reviewer said it was. I was just about to tuck it back under the mattress and tilt my face toward the sun, which had come out from behind a very large cloud, when I turned through a few more pages and saw it: Dara Falcon, Actress and Playwright. No survivors were mentioned. There was a photograph from the early eighties, which is when she'd had her biggest success, starring opposite Viva in an Andy Warhol film, and later as Amanda Greenfield, on the soap Time of Desire. In the photograph, her hair was parted down the middle, and she was looking at the camera without any trace of a smile. She had on a turtleneck, and if I could have seen the rest of her, she would have been wearing her size-seven jeans and-had the photograph been taken a little earlier-the ruby-and-diamond ring Tom Van Sant had given her. It had been his mother's ring, and there had been a time when it bothered him very much that his mother had died so young, before he had any serious girlfriend. But then, what didn't make Tom Van Sant sad? His mother's death was one of the few things he hadn't orchestrated to make himself morose.

Dara Falcon had died of pancreatic cancer, according to her secretary. She hadn't written anything that had been published or, to my knowledge, performed, in fifteen years, and she had a secretary? Who could really say, I suppose: J. D. Salinger; Dara-towering piles of manuscripts might eventually materialize. But how had Dara managed to get not only an obit in the Times, but a photograph as well? I looked again at the photograph. This was the woman my former sister-in-law had irately described as being responsible for the end of my marriage. Before that, though, she'd gotten me to sell her my car for a dollar, and she'd let me wear Tom Van Sant's mother's ring while she wore my alpaca jacket, and then she'd given me a hundred dollars because the dry cleaner had ruined it, though I later found out they had given her one fifty.

"You blame me for bad luck?" she'd said, incredulously. She always made me question whether I was rational. And those times when she'd grant that I was, she'd pout because I wasn't a good sport. "Well, yes, what you say is rational, sweetheart, but can't you forgive me?" She spoke in italics. She had a way of being able to wither into a waif right in front of you, her eyes suddenly larger, the slight hunch of her shoulders reducing her instantly in size. In Tom Van Sant's presence she was often inches shorter and pounds lighter than she actually was.

After the Cafe Central days, when New York got too expensive and her career as a soap opera actress was too discouraging, she went into exile in Vermont, which was the preferred farthest edge of the world for the truly hip. She sent amusing photocopied Christmas letters (in fact, the only ones I have ever received were from Aunt Elizabeth and from her), in which she referred to herself in the third person and did an impressive job of satirizing Christmas letters, filling hers entirely with trivia. The last time I heard from her she was still the quintessential Dara, expressing her undying devotion, and cueing me that I should respond in kind, because she was gravely ill.

Above the Gulf of Mexico, a small boat pulled someone dangling from a blue-and-white parachute. Except for its bright color, the way it billowed and drifted reminded me of tropical insects that could settle so gently you'd never sense their presence until after the bite. My husband was off on a catamaran with his brother, who'd flown from a small town outside of Albany to spend a few days with us in Key West. At Christmas Jacob had found out that his wife was having an affair with their minister, so he was preoccupied and feeling sorry for himself. John thought that constant activity was the best way to distract Jacob. Panting and glazed with salt water and sweat, they would appear at periodic intervals and then rush off again. This time they had been gone for almost an hour.

A waitress in a short sarong, halter top, and high-top basketball sneakers asked if I would like anything from the bar. I ordered an iced coffee and thought about what I could do to distract myself from thinking about Dara-which really meant what I could do to distract myself from thinking about my life. A man I dated long before I met John (a man who ultimately betrayed me) had often listened in puzzled silence to my impassioned descriptions of Dara's behavior-I was even more worked up about it years ago-and then had said to me, "She sounds like my idea of hell. It makes you wonder why anyone would befriend a person when they could befriend a dog." He wasn't trying to be funny; my stories about Dara had made him doubt whether I had good sense and also inspired him to get an Irish setter.

You could ask a dozen people who knew her, and in all likelihood they would describe different Daras. The only common denominator might be that while they had first thought one thing about her, eventually they had come to think the opposite. This would not necessarily be anything negative; they might have thought her very outgoing and decided that actually she was quite a private person, or they might have thought she was a good listener and then decided that she was clever to ask leading questions and file away the answers-a writer at heart, wasn't that true? Usually men held the strongest opinions, because if men knew her for any time at all, they tended to find themselves in very deep, very fast. She was more cautious with women, and they with her. If you weren't equally pretty-though of a different type-she usually couldn't be engaged. Of course, you also had to be somebody, though I don't mean somebody in the eyes of the world: it would suffice if you were a highly recommended optometrist, or even if you could be relied on to help her. She once shared a house in Vermont with a woman who raised ladybugs. Either she raised the best ladybugs, or the biggest, or had the largest mail-order business-I can't remember. But with men or women, whatever you were-whatever you did-had to be easily paraphrasable and sound at once humorous and dramatic. If she couldn't present you in one sentence, she wasn't interested. My own sentence was: She met an actor at Cafe Central and sailed for England with him the next morning. Though she'd known me more intimately in other times, this would be the first thing she said after introducing me to someone new. No matter that the actor's name would have been unfamiliar to anyone who hadn't watched a sitcom that only lasted a dozen episodes. No description of the way this might have been a more interesting situation than it seemed (I was paid to pretend to his elderly aunt that I was his fianc?e). No qualifiers or explanations were ever offered at all, except that sometimes she would digress into saying that the nightlife at Cafe Central was the most fun she had ever had in New York, and sometimes she would throw in the information that Bruce Willis tended bar. She passed over the fact that she moved away with the ladybug lady (who had tried without success to become an actress, and became, instead, a sales clerk at Macy's, before poverty drove her to Vermont) when she could no longer afford her rent. She wanted to give the impression that we-but particularly she-had been at the right place at the right time, though she didn't ever say that most of the actors who hung around Cafe Central didn't think she was a very good writer, or that, as time went on, people no longer jumped up when she walked in to invite her to join their table. Someone had found out that no one at Long Wharf had ever heard of her, so of course they were not really considering presenting her newest play. One man she'd slept with said that she'd confided in him that she was drawn increasingly to women, and a woman who'd cut her hair in exchange for a few white wines the previous night told stories behind her back, saying that Dara had picked up the cut hair and wanted her to kiss it-that what at first seemed like a joke had become frightening when Dara repeatedly kissed the hair herself, down on her knees like an animal feeding. She had risen with a whiskery mouth and tears in her eyes, looking so forlorn, the person said . . . , so desirous that someone be involved in the oddly personal ritual with her. Dara would tell you that she had spent a dreamy afternoon-"dreamy" was one of her favorite words-dancing with Patsy Cline (meaning: to Patsy Cline tapes; Dara understood she had no power to resurrect the dead), or that for breakfast she had feasted on feathers (translation: health-food-store breakfast food that looked like large, ragged asterisks; who could say what strange substances we ingested back then in the name of good health?). I let her stay at my apartment for the two weeks I was on the QE2 and in London. She teased me by calling it my "flat" and by mock complaints that I had such a small "telly." It was necessary then, and always, to exaggerate the way someone lived so that they lived a major or a minor life. Certainly no one she would associate with could live an average life, so we were all either worse off or else really living amid opulence or, at the very least, situated in fascinatingly eclectic circumstances. I thought I had been to her New York apartment, but it turns out I had only visited a place she'd been house-sitting. At the time, though, I took careful note o...

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• Editore: Vintage
• Data di pubblicazione: 1998
• ISBN 10: 0679781323
• ISBN 13: 9780679781325
• Rilegatura: Copertina flessibile
• Numero di pagine: 320