The Battle of Shilo: Respect Nothing But Your Pain

As far back as I can remember, my life was perfect. Until my parents were divorced, a part of me experienced the pain of affliction. At the age of six, I was kidnapped and violently sexually violated by a man. At age 7, a woman that was my neighbor sexually violated me multiple times. I fell into a void of unconsciousness for years throughout elementary school. Psychologically impaired, spiritually devoured by unfamiliar evil distorted who I was as a child, upon entering Middle school in Camden, N.J. North Camden was a very harsh environment. I fell victim to selling/using drugs for 36 years. Miraculously, I survived being in a coma 2-3 times (motorcycle/dirtbike accidents). I broke every bone on my body. Enduring the streets manifested nothing less than destruction in my life. I've experienced four hardcore prison sentences, shot four times by four different people. In the face of doing life in prison four times, I overcame the system four consecutive times.
Piece by piece, God begins mending my life together. Nothing didn't come easy without me paying the price with my soul. I lost my oldest son while in prison, and I survived two heart attacks. Through it all, I got closer to understanding God within my essence. It took years for me to realize how powerful my Spirit is. When aligned to God's essence and the duality to our given natures. However, I was buried to the core of my ignorance. Im here to tell you, If you are still alive after reading and can identify with pain. This book is for you. My interpretations may explain knowledge to a degree; it will enhance you or your loved ones. No one in this world can say that they're perfect. My lies held me, hostage for years. I didn't want to live due to being Incompetent, impaired, disoriented, and afflicted.
Evil had my mind bound to my weaknesses and strongholds burning my soul. Through God's conscience, my intuition came alive. Waking up my intuition that keeps my life grounded. I found a purpose in all my suffering. As an Author, Im living to change lives. By giving away what God gave me. Hope, love, beauty, dreams, and a day to change. I learned before that we could connect with greatness. We have to organize what needs order inside of us. Take this ride with me and catch a wave of thoughts that may change your perspective. Respect Nothing But Your Pain, not with ego. But in God's spiritual essence. I overcame a past that was supposed to kill me. My purpose is to encourage and touch as many lives as possible. The simplicity in changing becomes loving who we are as well as others. I highly value all my experiences, good and bad. The main reason I love the title of this book. I looked for love all my life but couldn't respect my pain. Respect Nothing But Your Pain..... Transferring energy is natural, considering any intercourse. We do transfer our characteristics to others, as we inter an inner-being of another. Thus, the course through spirits exchanges qualities to our thoughts, feelings, and emotions. Through every sense of adhering to our likes and dislikes.
Individually we evolve to a particular interest. A man being a sexual abuse survivor as a child made me vicious that ran through the streets of Camden, N.J. without a care in the world. I didn't have any respect for human life. My tempo of anger became a force of impulsiveness. A compulsion of rebelliousness, agnosticism, self-righteousness, and my authority. The streets raised me, but I paid the price. I crawled to God in my brokenness, fighting through all my trials and tribulations. Believing in that little 6-year-old child trapped inside of my soul. The bondage turned into a quiet cry, screaming the void of my heart. A heart that wanted love but had to Respect Nothing But Your Pain. Respect Nothing, But Your Pain is another word for Spiritual warfare. We may not live the pain others bear. Therefore we're living it. Respect Nothing But Your Pain.