Beyond Fear
By Vernell EverettiUniverse, Inc.
Copyright © 2010 Vernell Everett
All right reserved.ISBN: 978-1-4401-9941-7Chapter One
Sunday mornings in Mississippi were times for church going, playing, eating good or just resting up for Monday. Everybody in this part of the world had to work five and a half days a week. Nobody was exempt, not even the small children between the ages of five and ten. There was always enough work for everybody. Now, Sunday was different. Sunday was the Lord's Day. The God-fearing people of Mississippi never claimed to work six days and rest the seventh day like the creator did; they made do with five and one-half days of working before they rested or took a break from the work they mostly hated. The other half day was set aside to unwind from a hard week and to get ready for praising the Lord on Sunday. Some of these people didn't have church on their minds on Saturday nights, they were too busy sinning. They would ask the Lord for forgiveness on Sunday, along with tithing a small offering from the monies that was left over from a hot Saturday night of paying for their sins. It cost money to serve two or more gods, a fact that the night owls knew well.
The church was the community center where all community members could get together and catch up on the local news. The local juke joints were not places that all the citizens would go, like children, ladies, and high ranking men of the church. This left the church as the single meeting place where all citizens were smiled upon. They all didn't go to church to get saved from the devil, which was understood by everybody.
Serving the Lord was almost as expensive as serving the devil, but not nearly as much fun. These old hypocrites were never glad to see the end of Saturday night but they had a hard time lasting until the longwinded preacher finished delivering the word. These fellows and some of the ladies too, needed to get back to sinning as soon as possible no matter what the cost. The Saturday-night booze guzzlers could charge Sunday's eye-opener half pints of rotgut until the next payday, most was shy of cash on Sundays. First they would pay their respect to their God on the Sabbath anyway, and then off to the joints.
J D sits on the porch tying the strings of his one-and-only pair of dress shoes. He used a spoon of bacon grease on them to give them a bit of a shine. He knew that by the time he walked to church, which was three miles down the dusty road, the shoes would be dirty again. He was wasting his time sprucing up them cotton-picking shoes, something that he knew, but he chose to ignore. Looking clean was an impossibility, but he would do his best with what he had. His mother taught him to be thankful for what little he had. His mother had a strong belief in the philosophy of making do with what one has and J D believed in the same philosophy.
J D went to church nearly every Sunday, but not only to give his heart to God, but to give his heart to his girlfriend and his friends too. He could also appreciate the spiritual benefits of belonging to the church. J D felt safer at church than he did at home. There were many at the church to share his confusions and doubts with. At church he felt that he was among his kind. He felt safe in big crowds.
The weather looked good for the walk to church, no rain in sight. The dust was always better than the mud. The roads in this part of Mississippi would become hard to travel on when they were wet. The mud would suck the shoes right off your feet. After a downpour the motor vehicles had to be pushed up most of the muddy hills. The best way to travel on these country roads after a rain was to pull off your shoes and walk barefooted. Horse-drawn wagons were the surest transportation for the old folks and the tots during the rainy season.
The old hound lay underneath the steps where he always lay, where it was cool and safe from the feet of nearly a dozen people tracking all over the place on Sundays. Sunday was one day of the week when nobody envied the old half-bread hound who had nothing much to do except lay in the shade every day. J D would often think of the whole world as being a better place for animals than it was for human beings, especially poor, blacks and hardworking folks. The old half-breed dog had it easy seven days a week. The old fleabag was good for absolutely nothing except eating what he could get and making himself as comfortable as possible. There seldom was anything to bark at or watch out for anyway. There wasn't much work for an old lazy-ass dog; no strangers, no hunting and no loose stock to chase; he had no responsibilities.
J D could still smell the scents from the girls' straightening combs. It took the girls a long while to fry their hair in order to make it as straight as possible. The straighter the better. The kitchen was the only room in the house where this hot-combing the hair could take place because that's where the stove was. Anybody from another culture might be led to believe that some special food was cooking, believing that colored folks ate mostly anything that grew, crawled or walked anyway. The girls were always the time-machines determining what time the march to church would start. The long three-mile walk to church began when the girls finished their hair. The time it took the ladies to get their hair ready dictated when the march got started. When Ann, the second cousin, spent Saturday night at the Banks, the giggling and primping took a lot longer. This was one of those times.
J D sometimes wondered just what was the purpose of all the useless activities that his people wasted their time doing. He never liked the answers that he came up with. Why things were as they were? He only got confused when he tried to answer his own questions. Most of the people whom he knew either never asked the questions or had long ago given up on making sense of the answers and accepted things as they were. Even if they could think about change, they had no idea what the changes should be to.
The boys were very much in tune with these rituals taken place before the march started on the road to church. Marching to the church where they could praise the Lord on Sunday mornings.
One could see through the house from the front poach to the kitchen, the kitchen was in the back of the house. The house consist of two sides, both had three rooms each. The only difference was on one side was a kitchen and a dining room and the big bedroom. The big bedroom was Mr. and Mrs. Banks. The other three bedrooms were on the opposite side of the house. There was no living room or sitting room. The big bedroom and the dining room were where the family hung out. The house had two front doors; one entered the big combination bedroom and sitting room, the dinning room and the kitchen. A ball could be thrown through the house on the kitchen side without hitting a single thing, if the back and front doors were opened. The other side had no back door, just a front doors and doors to the dinning room and kitchen. The third bedroom was used for company or, for Grandma Ida.
Now, Mr. Bank's' momma; Grandma Ida; was one mean woman. She had not one grand child who liked having her around; they were too scared of her. It was a good thing that she had lots of children to divide her days among. She lived a few weeks here and a few weeks there since her own house burned down. You could tell that the old lady was not here this week by the noise the girls were making while they got ready for the big day of the week.
"Ah-ite chilens, las hur up ah we be late fuh Sunday School." Momma Banks order was the signal to speed up the girl's last minutes hair touchups, slips adjustments, vanilla-flavoring their under arms and making sure their smiles were pretty enough to get the attentions of their most sought after young fellows. Everybody seemed to get a bit excited when the order to move out was given, except the old half-breed mutt.
Old flaps seemed to realize that these actions had nothing at all to do with him. He didn't move a muscle, not one. He just lay where he could watch the actions that made no sense to him at all. The old dog didn't bother to scratch the itches caused by the blood-sucking fleas. He had gotten use to itching a long time ago. The half-dead mutt didn't bother with scratching itches if at all possible.
Bud and John came out of the boy's room arguing as usual about how things should be. Neither knew up from down about how things should be ...
"Is daddy outta brew yit?" Asked John.
"Nawh" Bud snapped at John.
Bud knew that his daddy had passed out last night long before he had enough time to empty the full quart jar of corn whiskey. The Saturday nights when Daddy Banks had help drinking up his stash of whiskey he might run out soon enough to sober up by Sunday morning and attend church. He had his whiskey all to himself this time and had plenty left to keep him happy all day. Yes sir, even though the old man loved to sing and pray to his God, he was not about to leave his whiskey just to attend church. He took that much after his daddy before him, who was a connoisseur of good stump juice. He was a member of a small number of old-timers who didn't take their boozing lightly. Rotgut provided a more comfortable hiding place from a butt-kicking life than the church did for this bunch.
John called the old man daddy the same as J D and Bud even though john was a second cousin who managed to stay with the Banks most of the time. John was Ann's brother. Their parents cared less about what time John and Ann came home as long as they were over at their great uncle's house. Nobody had any objections to this arrangement, or none objected loud enough to be heard anyway.
John had no objections to anything that anybody could recall, except work. He could be extremely creative when it came to avoiding labor of any kind. His extreme dislike for doing chores kept him away from his own home and other places where work was done. John was a perfect sidekick for the loafing crowd.
"Daddy loves de Lawd wid all his hart, but he love his whiskey wid all his hart and soul," J D said as he headed out of the door.
J D never stopped worrying about his daddy's physical safety here on earth and his soul in the next life.
"Daddy got de ida dat he kin serv mo den one gawd."
Old Flaps sort of cracked open one eye just to see if the dressed-up masters and misses were headed in the right direction. A direction that he knew his company would not be appreciated. Flaps changed his position just enough to shift his weight to his other side. He winked the eye that a fly had lit on. The fly moved on. Flapps and daddy Jessie Banks had the place to themselves for awhile. The sorry-ass flea-bag slowly rose to his feet and went off looking for his sleeping partner He liked to stick close to his sleeping buddy; Daddy Banks.
The marching church-going groups were as common in this part of the county as grazing stock in the pastures. The watch dogs at the homes that these groups marched by rarely made a sound. Sunday was by far the best day of the week, especially during the farming season. The children, adults, dogs, cats and all the other animals on the farms got alone very well on Sunday.
Momma Banks was leading the pack without saying a mumbling word. She never said anything about her husband staying home drunk as a homebrew-drinking dog, but she showed her anger by walking too fast and with an iron silent mood. A drunkard for a husband and her children's father gave her a holy cause for going to church. Mother Banks was extremely self-righteous during times like this. Daddy Banks had been the same every since Momma Banks first saw him. He had been drunk when he had asked her to marry him. She thought he needed the bottled courage to give him the nerves to ask her the big question. She learned over the years that she had been wrong. Momma once held the notion that prayer could change things, but they sure hadn't changed her children's daddy. That was her second big wrong about what she thought would be.
Grandma Ida was usually with Momma Banks to share the shame with when Mr. Banks was having Christmas. That's what Momma Banks called his drinking spells. Grandma Banks said that Jess's daddy was the same way even though he was a jack-leg preacher. He preached when he was clear-headed enough to attend church.
Everybody was hoping a ride would just happen by even though the day was perfect for a three-mile walk. They had to walk every step of the way. Shoes got dirty and sweat streaked through the girl's oily faces, but they kept the hair around the edges behind the head, called kitchens, dry to prevent it from going back kinky. The boys usually beat the dust from their pants cuffs before gong into the church house. This attempting to clean up a bit before entering the House of God was nothing to fidget about. Most of the members had to do the same clean-up job even if they rode on the back of trucks. The girls headed for the girl's outhouse for a quick makeover. This attention to their clothing was not for the benefits of the Lord
The two outhouses were fifty feet apart but that did not stop the boys from going visiting the
girl's outhouse once in a while. The frequently- used path between the toilets was not made by 'coons.
The young, and maybe some of the old for that matter, used the path to have a moment of privacy with some person who might be instrumental in fulfilling some wishful thoughts. One of the reasons that many went to church was to answer the call for lust gratification. The church was the social watering hole for satisfying the thirst for the opposite sex.
People practicing in forbidden love was a common social problem in this part of Mississippi. A few serious church members came to church on Sundays just to try to relieve a bit of guilt resulting from the practice of eating from the trees of forbidden fruits. According to the Gospel nearly all physical love that is enjoyed is forbidden love. The preacher's most soul-searching sermons were usually about the sins of sex other than sex to procreate. This meant that everybody in the county and maybe the whole world was living in sin as far as sex was concerned. The young never paid much attention to these hell-fire and brimstone sermons; they loved just thinking about the girls too much. Half of the young were scared to death of a real physical relationship. They were just practicing for times to come.
Before the Sunday school leaders could corral the young folks, the young'uns had gathered underneath the old oak tree, which had shaded unlimited generations of young people for as long as anybody could remember and then some. All the generations before this one had the same thing in mind; forbidden contacts between girls and boys. When called to get inside the church, the whispering, giggling, gang of youths was a little reluctant to give up their outside shade-tree party which made coming to Sunday school tolerable in the first place. With a few last glances at their chosen puppy loves, the children self-conscientiously marched stiff-legged into the church to be taught how to be good soldiers in the army of the Lord.
The church was the axis around which the local societies revolved and all the clans could connect as one in the name of the Lord. The church received the newborn into this world and sent the dead out of this world into the great beyond. The young had a good chance of meeting their future wives and husbands at church. The schools were meeting grounds too, but the school children were not usually old enough to get serious about their future and whom they want to share it with. The children were usually finished with school by the time they reached fifteen or sixteen years of age. Anyway school only lasted six months of the year, the church continued all year.
Aunt Sal was one good Sunday school teacher. She never missed one Sunday teaching her class, no sir, not one. Nobody could recollect Aunt Sal missing attending church even when she was down with the miseries. Ailing or not, she was the best at explaining the meanings of the Ten Commandments.
The rumor was that Aunt Sal was not as dedicated as she seemed to be to doing the Lord's work, but more committed to keeping an eye on Rev. Mayfield. The common belief is that the good Preacher may have been the father of Aunt Sal's two younger children. All three, Rev. Mayfield and both the young boys had those huge funny looking ears. They sure had something in common. Aunt Sal was also into other spiritual practices too. She was known to have made trips a-plenty to Mobile and New Orleans.
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