CHAPTER 1
The Reading
I was busy doing readings in the privacy of my home. My marriage was failing, and it was only a matter of time before it completely dissolved. I had let go of my traditional design work, at which I had achieved success, to assist others on their spiritual journeys.
I received an out-of-the-blue call to do some faux finishing and met Jean, who was a loving, kind, and sweet soul. I was perplexed during the entire consultation. I asked, "Jean, can I ask you a question?" When she nodded, I asked, "Are you single?"
She was bewildered and didn't know how to answer. Finally, she said, "Yes, but no. He died, but he's here."
I said, "He passed two years ago. He is here, but not. He's been playing with me since I arrived and has been turning on and off the lights and the TV in the master bedroom."
She was surprised, became emotional, and asked, "How can you know that?"
I was transparent with her, explaining that I had been confused when she called me. Telling her I didn't know Melissa, the decorator who had referred her to me and that I was not promoting my decorative arts or design work because I was only doing spiritual work as a medium. I explained that I didn't understand why God had brought us together, but I knew that He had. She became excited, and said she could answer this riddle for me, that Melissa was looking for a medium, and the connection was made.
I then shared with Jean, the intuitive information I was given, as to why she had the need to decorate her home and in ways she had not thought of when her husband was alive. Her husband wanted her to make this place her own personal space. Later, while I was painting in the home, he came through very dramatically and was such a loving and supportive man. He told me how much he loved the walls I was painting, and I shared this with her. Meeting Jean and having this beautiful exchange with her changed both our lives.
I met Melissa days later at Jean's home. Jean had a doctor's appointment and asked me to arrive fifteen minutes early. She trusted me with the keys to her home. I let myself in and waited for Melissa and her mother, who was visiting.
Melissa was "in my face" immediately, telling me what I would and would not do. I explained that I was a professional and had a code of ethics. I assured her if she let me do my job, she would see how I treated my clients with respect. I then asked her if she had carte blanche to make all decisions for her client, and she answered no. I told her that I had to do it my way, and if she liked it, she could refer me again.
Melissa again tried to tell me what to do and told me to take down some of the finishes I was offering Jean. We both liked the same one and she wanted me to tell Jean what she was going to get in her home, instead of offering her the choices. I explained the way I worked arose from my extensive training. It was my job to educate clients so they would know what effect the painting or redecorating would have on their homes. I gave clients the educated choices I would want someone to give me. If she allowed me to proceed, she would see Jean come to the same conclusion about which finish would work best. I explained this process would build Jean's self-esteem because it allowed her to make the choice. Melissa would see Jean light up when she realized she picked the same finish.
Jean walked in, hugged me, and spoke to Melissa, who told Jean that we would tell her what to do. I calmly said, "No, we will not, Melissa. Jean, if I may, let's begin." Jean chose the finish she wanted. When I revealed it was the same one we'd picked, she was elated and couldn't believe she had made the same choice people in the industry would have made.
When it was time to leave, Jean offered to help me take my samples to my car. Melissa demanded that she alone walk me out. As soon as we left Jean's doorway, I asked Melissa if she had learned anything about how I do business. She said, "I don't want to talk about that. I want to ask you questions." She interrogated me about changing jobs. I told her my spiritual work was not something I allowed anyone to play with; if she wanted to know anything, she should schedule a session. She booked an appointment three days later.
Thirty minutes before my session with Melissa, I was on the phone with my best friend, Robyn. I explained that I was very uncomfortable. I didn't want to do the session with Melissa. Robyn was surprised, as she had never heard me talk like that. She asked me provocative questions to get me to articulate my thoughts. This was something we have always offered each other in friendship, to speak aloud what we were feeling within to gain more clarity.
Ten minutes before the session, I told Robyn I had to go to ask God what I was supposed to do. I asked God, "What do I do about Melissa's energy? I don't want her in my home, and this is the first time I've not wanted to do a session with someone."
I heard God answer clearly, "Tell the ego it does not have permission to come into your space. It cannot come inside and must stay in the car."
I smiled and said to myself, Well, let's see if this works. I said aloud, "Melissa, I'm struggling over you coming into my home, and I have to tell you that you can come in, but your ego has to stay in the car."
She came to the door, was demure, and her body showed signs of humility. Instead of standing erect and walking aggressively, she was softer in every way, including her voice. She was much more relaxed than she had been in Jean's home. I smiled and thanked God for this new way of working with difficult people.
We began the session. When I first got the information, I paused because I couldn't believe God wanted me to address the fact that she was abrasive and difficult. God told me to get out of the way, to say what was coming through. I explained that Melissa's aggression and abrasiveness were not her true nature but due to something that had happened when she was fourteen. And because it and subsequent events had been so horrific and traumatic, she had never recovered. She was neither healed nor whole. I showed how this had affected her entire life with men, giving details about specific relationships that helped her to understand the patterns and why they had occurred.
I told her the man who was involved was standing in front of her and gave details of the events as well as their timeframe. I described his hair, including the color and how it was cut, his stature, age, and many more details. Anger started to rise within her. But she was also shocked that God knew her so well and so completely that He could reveal these details she had never disclosed to anyone, and she was sixty-one years old.
Before the session was over, she was crying. She forgave the man and walked out a freer woman. She told me about her brother, Phil, who was the most spiritual man she'd ever known. She said I was further along my path than he was and that he and I would enjoy meeting each other. I said, "Hey, I'm always up for another spiritual friendship."
That afternoon, Melissa called to ask me if I would do a session for Phil. However, he had extenuating circumstances; he was in federal prison. I told her I would not have a problem doing a session by phone with a federal inmate or anyone else for that matter. (I'd learned a lot from her.) I didn't need to know what he did or how long he had been in prison. I couldn't do the work if I judged him in any way.
I said I would be available at 2:00 the next afternoon and that he should meditate before he called. I would go as fast as I could because we only had fifteen minutes before the prison terminated the call.
Phil called the next day. Following is the entire unedited reading, so you can see what our first meeting was like.
June 7, 2011
I started crying when your sister, Melissa, called and asked me to do a reading for you, because I knew that I know you.
I went into a meditation just a few minutes ago, before this reading, and saw a past life with you, where you were two years older than me. We were in a prairie-like setting, and a tornado came. I was a small girl, and you were this beautiful, brown-headed guy, and the tornado picked me up.
You were trying to find me, and when you found me, there was a tree limb lying on top of me, and I died with you watching me. You have never forgiven yourself for allowing me to depart. They told me to tell you that you have found me. I am here [I was starting to get emotional], and I am fine, and that you and I are supposed to know each other. You have been looking for me in this lifetime, and you have found a connection that will make you feel even more connected to this physical plane.
I know that you have been dis-eased and that you were stressed, and that is why you have found yourself in a place of hiding, and they are telling me that you have actually been hiding in prison. You have been useful to other people. You have been working, you have been spiritually developing. I don't know how you feel about this, but they told me to ask you if you are ready ... that they need for you to come out. That you will be more useful on the outside than what you think you are on the inside, so that is something for you to ponder.
They are saying that your spiritual gifts in the last five years have just started to prompt, and prompt, and prompt things in you and that you have grown. But you are much, much more, Phil, than you can possibly conceive of, at this moment.
Your spiritual gifts are on a level of a nine or ten, and you are thinking you are at a four or five. They are saying to stop that thinking. Start paying very close attention to every single moment for what is said and what happens in your body.
They are saying that your sensory body is so elevated, that you don't even realize how perceptive you are in the sensory level, and that is one of your strengths. And, that if you are willing to come on the outside, that you will be more useful, and they will get you out; they will set you free. Does this resonate at all, with you feeling that you may be hiding in there? [Phil said yes.]
You are ready for the outside if you are willing to accept your charge here. They are saying that very much like me in previous lifetimes, there was a piousness and vows that you came forward with ... that you vowed this vow of poverty and this vow of having to live as Christendom has told us we must live, as sacrificial lambs, and they are saying, "It's time. We need you; we need you to come out of there. We need you to come out of that entire mindset; we need you to break that vow."
They will show you how to break that vow when you are in meditation. They are saying that much more information is coming faster and faster to you in meditation, and your sensory level is developing much faster as it goes.
When they told me that you were in hiding, they told me that "he doesn't really understand this yet, but he will" ... that it has been a comfort of seclusion, of isolation. And they are saying you are so past that, you don't need that any longer. It served you; it was here for the purpose that you were supposed to have, and now you have another calling or another charge.
Now, Phil, in telling you this, you get to choose whether or not you stay where you are, and you can continue to develop spiritually. There is no judgment. Or you can decide to get free. They are telling me right this minute, they are snapping their fingers, this is going to be revealed, and this is going to be revealed, and this is going to be revealed because of the fact that we are on the phone with each other.
You have made this connection with me in this lifetime, because you and I both are very evolved spiritual people, and I have finally submitted to what it is that I am supposed to do. I have been fighting it all of my life, being a medium, and I tried it in the church, and that didn't work so well. [Phil laughed.] This is why we are connecting, and I feel that this a reunion for me. I don't know if you can sense that or not, but you will. We are connected; we are very connected, and I know that we will be in touch at least by mailing each other ...
There is a connection that I feel right now, and I am seeing hands locked together – holding hands. You've got somebody to hold hands with you now. [I was getting emotional again.] You've got someone to hold your hand. I'm here. You never hurt me, you are with me, and we are in this together, and now it is time for us to go out there.
They are looking for people right now, Phil, to come forward, that came here, that are evolved and came here to help. There is so much going on energetically, and we are needed, Phil. That's why they are telling you that you've been in hiding, and that's okay.
I'm seeing a vision of you in a monk's outfit [discussed later what this meant to him, that he was hiding in prison, living the life of a monk]. And they are saying that you have been in some dark walls, but you were this bright light in there, and you have been useful, but it's time.
This is something you need to do with your mouth. You need to tell God with your own words; however you need to form this. You need to say to them with your arms open: "Yes," "No," or "Wait, I'm not ready," and you must give that formal reply.
It is very important that you start interacting with the spiritual realm in a very legitimate fashion other than just "okay, let's see what comes, let's see what happens; okay, this is cool." No, you are much, much more than that; you are much, much more. So it is time for you to understand the calling — why you came here, what your purpose is, how developed you are spiritually.
They are telling me that spiritual gifts are going to be given to you and as you go through your daily life in what you are doing right this very moment. You need to understand that this is very temporary for you, if you wish for it to be different for you.
You have already got it; don't question that anymore. [Phil said he wanted to get out of prison.] It is time, and you are there. You have already arrived, and something will happen that will set you free if you decide, if you say yes to them. Like I said, "Go into your private space, and do this."
You have found your long-lost sister, and now we are holding hands. There is a lot of shaking that is going on in the prison systems, as well as everywhere else, energetically. [It is] very much like being in a concentration camp, and let me tell you, you can be set free in a minute. You can be set free in a minute.
[Phil asked about a guy assisting him with his wheelchair invention and whether or not he was a good fit.]
I am seeing him being legitimate in caring for you and that you can trust him, but you are already beyond his capacity. He is a vehicle to help start the way, but they are saying that if there are twenty steps in order to get your invention done, he's like at two or three steps. I don't know why they are giving me the step thing; this must be how you think. So it is like a percentage thing, and they are saying that he is very caring and that you can trust him, and he wants to help you, but he doesn't know exactly what you need and that you are bigger than that already, and you know this ...
[Phil asked me about the concept of another invention.]
Your mind works in a very scientific way, but they see you doing this in a very spiritual manner. Follow your heart; you are very technical but also very spiritual. They are saying that you are like a Galileo and that you have been given these ideas over the last few years.
Sometimes you are playing with them; sometimes you are pushing them aside and have said, "I don't want to deal with you. I don't want to be free." And they are saying that the reason you were given these things, was to give you hope that there might be a future for you, and you are just going to walk straight into it (if you say "Yes"), and things are just going to unfold for you – very much like you're walking through the water, and it just divides for you.
You know something about the laws of attraction. Let me tell you something: Get more into the emotional side of the thought process and the sensory part of you. [Phil spoke briefly.]
Okay, stop saying anything judgmental about yourself. You being there is the best thing that could have happened to you, and you and they all agreed that you would be there. So, that type of thinking is what they are trying to get you to be aware of.
[He let me know the phone call was about to be terminated; it was beeping, warning him. He asked permission to call me back after a thirty-minute wait to speak to me for another fifteen minutes.]
You need to know I'm here, and we know each other and that you need to forgive yourself.
