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The Reality of Me

By Corleene (Radeke) Rouse

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Copyright © 2009 Corleene (Radeke) Rouse
All right reserved.
ISBN: 978-1-4389-8067-6

Chapter One

WHO'S FATE?

I BOUGHT ON THAT DAY IN A STORE NOT FAR AWAY MY FATE, WHICH I DID SAVE

WHEN THE TIME CAME I TOOK MY STAND AGAINST THE MOST HATED IN THIS LAND

I MET MY FOE ON EQUAL GROUND OUR EYES WERE LEVEL THERE WAS NO SOUND

WHEN IT WAS OVER AND BLOOD LAY SPILLED I LOOKED INTO THE EYES OF MY ENEMY AND FOUND ?

MAN'S CHOICE

WRITTEN IN THE ANCIENT SCROLLS HANDED DOWN THROUGH TIME FORETOLD THE FUTURE FATE OF MAN KIND

SO FAR AWAY- NO REASON TO WORRY NO REASON TO BE AFRAID

WILL MAN BE READY FOR HIS JUDGEMENT IF TOMORROW ARRIVED TODAY

IF FACED WITH HIS DESTRUCTION WOULD HE EMBRACE DEATH INSTEAD OF CHANGE

WOULD HE TURN A BLIND EYE SO HE NEED NOT SEE THE INNOCENT ONES THAT PAY FOR THE BLINDNESS OF OUR MISTAKES

WILL HE UNDERSTAND THAT IT WILL BE HIM IF HE DOES NOT LEARN THROW HIS OWN FUTURE AWAY

WHAT WILL MAN DO WHAT CHOICE WILL HE MAKE WILL IT BE HIS SALVATION OR HIS FINAL MISTAKE ?

FUTURE WARNING

FROM THE FIRE THAT CONSUMED IT'S LIFE FROM THE ASH'S THE PHOENIX WILL RISE GIVING WARNING TO THE WORLD OF THE TIME THAT HAS ARRIVED

IN THE SPRING OF THE NEW BORN YEAR WHEN THE SHIFT IS ALMOST HERE BY THE TURN OF YOUR OWN HAND YOUR DESTINY YOU WILL OF PLANNED

THE PATH THAT YOU WILL TAKE HAS BEEN DECIDED BY THE CHOICE'S YOU HAVE MADE

WILL IT BE THE HARVEST BROUGHT ON BY THE NEW BORN YEAR? WILL YOU BE DELIVERED FROM THAT WHICH SURROUNDS YOUR HEART AND KEEPS YOUR SPIRIT IN FEAR? OR WILL YOU REAP WHAT YOU HAVE SOWN TO THEN DROWN IN YOUR OWN SORROWS YOUR OWN WOE'S?

YOU CAN DENY WHO YOU ARE YOU CAN LOCK IT AWAY YOU CAN RUN, BUT YOU CAN'T HIDE FROM THE PERSON YOU ARE INSIDE

FOR DEEP WITHIN THE CONFINES OF THE MIND THE ANSWER HIDES DOWN THAT CORRIDOR YOU WILL ALSO FIND ALL THAT YOU'VE BEEN MISSING IN YOUR LIFE FIND THAT KEY-OPEN THAT DOOR ALL THAT YOU HAVE LOST, WILL SURROUND YOU NOW AND FOREVER MORE.

LIVING IN DARKNESS, DOING OUR TIME PRISONERS WE'VE MADE OF OUR OWN MINDS HAND-CUFFED TO THE PAST BY THE STONES THAT WE HAVE CAST CAN WE SURVIVE TO SEE THE LITE OF DAY TO FEEL THE WARMTH OF THE SUN UPON OUR FACE OR WILL WE BE TRAPPED BY THE MEMORY'S WE'VE MADE LIVING IN DARKNESS NOT WANTING TO BE SAVED

WHAT CHOICE WILL YOU MAKE?

THE BEST VISION IS INSIGHT malcolum forbes

THE PAST THAT WAS DISCARDED AS THE DAY WAS DONE HAS PAVED IT'S WAY BEYOND A FUTURE THAT HAS NOT YET COME. WE TRY SO HARD TO FORGET BUT THE PAST....... IS THE GATEWAY TO WHAT'S BEING SENT. WITH ALL THE HEART-ACHE AND SORROW THE PAST IS THE EYE'S YOU'LL LOOK UPON TOMORROW

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GO TO THE MOST INNER PART OF YOUR HEART SEARCH THE VASTNESS OF YOUR MIND ENTER THE VERY DEPTH OF YOUR SOUL FOR THE ANSWERS YOU SEEK THIS IS WHERE YOU MUST GO.

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THEY SEE THE STORM THAT RAGES OUTSIDE NOT THE HURT THAT BURNS INSIDE THEY SEE THE ANGER FOR ALL MAN-KIND NOT THE TEARS BEHIND THE EYES THEY SHUN THIS PERSON, THEY DO NOT SEE THE SORROW WITHIN THE HEART OF HE WHO HAS BEEN DECEIVED

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A SOFT BREEZE TOUCHED THE FACE OF THE ONE-WHO BE SAVED A SECOND CHANCE WAS HEAVEN'S WILL THE ANGELS BOWED THE EARTH WAS STILLED

A SMALL VOICE WAS HEARD FROM BELOW THANK YOU GOD FOR UNDERSTANDING WHEN MY SPIRIT WAS SO LOW

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MY CHOICE.... MY DESTINY 3A.M.

I STOOD IN FRONT OF GOD ONE DAY WITH TEARS IN HIS EYES HE LISTENED TO WHAT I HAD TO SAY REMEMBER THE CHOICE YOU GAVE TO ME WELL, I DECIDED I WANT TO BE FREE TO FIGHT THE EVIL THAT I SEE TO LET THE WILL OF HEAVEN FLOW THROUGH ME

GO FORTH THEN WAS GOD'S COMMAND GO FORTH TO THAT HOSTILE AND BARREN LAND SO STRIPPED OF MY FEELINGS , MY THOUGHTS , MY MIND I WAS SENT DOWN TO DO MY TIME I HAD TO LEARN LIKE THE NEW BORN BABE ALL THE THOUGHTS AND FEELINGS THEY TOOK AWAY

I STUMBLED THROUGH LIFE WITH NO THOUGHTS OF MY OWN NOT A CARE IN THE WORLD, NO LOVE DID I HOLD MY SPIRIT GREW TIRED MY MIND LAY WEAK MY HEART WAS UNHAPPY MY SOUL DID GRIEVE I WAS LONELY, I WAS SCARED I WANTED TO LOVE, I WANTED TO CARE

IN THE STILLNESS OF THE NIGHT WHEN THE MOON SAT FULL IN THE SKY AN ANGEL CAME TO MY SIDE BEFORE GOD DO YOU NEED TO STAND(again) TO BE REMINDED OF YOUR PART IN HIS PLAN HAVE YOU USED THE GIFTS GOD GAVE TO HELP THE LOST FIND THEIR WAY CAN THE WEAK DEPEND ON YOU TO HELP THEM STAND TO SEE THEM THROUGH

I ASKED FOR FORGIVENESS ON BENDED KNEES FOR ANY MIS-DEEDS THIS REBEL SOUL I'LL PUT TO SLEEP THIS TROUBLED SPIRIT I WILL EASE NO LONGER WILL I BE KNOWN BY THE NAME WHICH I HAVE SOWN

GIVE ME PLEASE, ONE MORE CHANCE TO FIGHT THE DEMONS INSIDE OF ME I'LL DO MY STUDIES I'LL LEARN THEM WELL I KNOW MY LIFE HERE ON EARTH DEPENDS ON HOW MUCH I LEARN TO CARE

I SAW THE LOST I WAS TO HELP I SAW THEIR SORROWS, I FELT THEIR FEAR'S MY EYE'S FILLED WITH SADNESS MY HEART FILLED WITH TEARS AND LOVE FLOWED FROM THIS HEART I THOUGHT TURNED COLD

I WAS GASING AT THE SKY AT MY SIDE GOD SMILED FOR HE WAS PLEASED NO LONGER, HE SAID, ARE YOU BLIND FOR NOW YOU SEE THE LOVE YOU GIVE, COMES TO YOU FROM ME THE HOPE YOU SHARE, FILLS THEIR HEARTS GIVES THERE LIFE MEANING A BRAND NEW START THEY IN TURN REACH OUT THEM SELVES TO SHOW THE LOST THEY TO, CAN LEARN TO CARE

GOD

WHEN YOU FEEL THE WIND UPON YOUR FACE KNOW GOD HAS SENT THE WINGS OF AN ANGEL TO KEEP YOU SAFE

THE FIRE THAT KEEPS YOU DRY IS THE LOVE HE HAS INSIDE TO KEEP YOU WARM THROUGH THE NIGHT

THE EARTH'S THE STRENGTH HE'S WILLING TO GIVE TO MAKE YOU HAPPY A CHANCE TO LIVE

YOU MAY LOOK INTO THE SKY AND SEE HIS SMILING EYES OR FEEL HIS PRESENCE AT YOUR SIDE

NEVER DOES HE LEAVE FOR EACH AND EVERY DAY GOD WALKS AT YOUR SIDE (original version)GOD

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HE'S A WARM RAIN ON A SUMMERS DAY THE WIND UPON A STORMY SEA HE'S THE FIRE THAT KEEPS ME SAFE THE SUN THAT LIGHTS MY WAY HE'S THE BROOK THAT RUNS NATURAL AND FREE THE SMELL OF NATURE IN THE SPRING HE'S THE BLANKET THAT KEEPS ME WARM WHEN I NEED TO SLEEP THE MOON WHO WATCH'S OVER ME AS I START TO DREAM WHEN THE NITE HAS GONE HE'S THE EARLY MORNING DEW I SMILE UPON HE'S THE LOVE I FEEL INSIDE FOR EACH AND EVERY DAY GOD WALKS AT MY SIDE (revised)

THE TASK IS TO DEFINE ONESELF, FOR ONESELF, IN A MANNER THAT ENABLES A RELATIONSHIP TO ONESELF. IN SO DOING, ONE BECOMES WHO ONE TRULY IS. (dr. allen w. anderson )

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A LONELY LOVERS PRAYER

AS I KNEEL BESIDE MY BED AT THE CLOSE OF A WEARY DAY I BURY MY HEAD IN MY HANDS AND TEARS FALL AS I PRAY DEAR LORD, AS UNWORTHY AS I AM, I ASK ONE THING OF THEE TO BLESS THE ONE I LOVE TONIGHT AND KEEP HIM CLOSE TO ME I CANNOT GO TO HIM AND TAKE HIM BY THE HAND BUT LORD, YOU COULD GO AND HELP HIM UNDERSTAND HELP HIM KEEP ME IN HIS HEART UNTILL WE MEET AGAIN EVEN THOUGH WE'RE FAR APART I LOVE HIM GOD.........................AMEN author unknown

GOD'S TEARS

THE MORNING DEW HID ANY TRACE OF TEARS THAT FELL FROM A HEART BROKEN FACE

HELD THERE IN DAWNS MISTY EMBRACE WAS A SORROW ONE LONELY HEART MUST BRAVE

THIS TREE WHERE SHE HID SHED SILENT TEARS FOR THIS SPIRIT WHO SAT CRYING FULL OF FEAR

SO NATURE SPREAD HER BRANCH'S SO GOD COULD SEE WHO SAT BENEATH HER BARREN WINGS

THE RAIN THAT STARTED TO FALL FELL FROM HEAVENS HEART

GOD FELT HER SORROW TOGETHER THEY CRIED TILL ALL HER TEARS WERE DRY

SHE SMILED FOR THE FIRST TIME THAT DAY SAFE IN GOD'S EMBRACE SECURE IN HIS STRENGTH.

SHE COULD MAKE IT, SHE KNEW SHE COULD FOR IN HER HEART SHE HELD NOT ONLY GOD'S LOVE SHE ALSO HELD HIS TEARS

REMEMBER ME

REMEMBER ME WHEN THE WIND BLOWS TO LET US KNOW SUMMER HAS LEFT US BEHIND AND THE WINTER COVERS A BLANKET OF SNOW AND FROST AMONG THE ONCE GOLDEN LEAF'S.

REMEMBER ME WHEN THE LAUGHTER IN THE DISTANCE DIES WITH THE PASSING YEARS, NEVER TO BE FORGOTTEN.

THE ONCE MOON LIT NIGHTS, THE LONG WALKS AMONG NATURE, DRIFT SLOWLY WITH THE WIND, THE LOW MOURNING SOUND HAS SADNESS UPON IT'S BEAUTY.

REMEMBER ME WHEN THE BRIM OF THE CANYON TOUCH'S IT'S SELF IN THE HORIZON,.... FOR THAT'S WHERE I'LL BE.

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WHAT IS WITHIN SURROUNDS US (rainer maria rilke)

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A MESSAGE OF STRENGTH WITH LOVE GOD

IF YOU NEED ME, IF YOU THINK I'M THERE, SEARCH FOR ME IN THE SILENCE OF THE OCEAN'S ROAR.

IF YOU REACH OUT, IF DON'T FEEL ME NEAR, LOOK TO THE HEAVENS TO EASE YOUR FEARS.

IF YOU GET SHAKY, IF IT'S HARD TO STAND, YOU'LL FIND MY STRENGTH IN NATURE'S LAND.

DO NOT DOUBT MY LOVING WAYS FOR BESIDE YOU I STAY

I SEND TO YOU THIS MESSAGE OF STRENGTH, SO YOU SHALL KNOW, YOUR NEVER ALONE original version

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IN LIFE..........................IN DEATH DID YOU KNOW

DO YOU THINK OF ME WHEN THE RAIN STARTS TO FALL? did you know... i was told, i was no one at all DID YOU KNOW, I STOOD IN THE SHADOWS OF YOUR LIFE? silently watching, while mine passed me by DO YOU REMEMBER.....................................WHEN I DIED? there was no tears in their eyes DID YOU KNOW, I LOOKED DOWN AT WHERE I LAY? to my sorrow no one cried that day.

AS I STOOD IN A TUNNEL OF LIGHT GOD CAME AND TOOK ME IN HIS ARMS HE GUIDED ME TO HIS PLACE OF DREAMS A PLACE MADE UP OF HIS WARMTH

GOD SAID

DID YOU KNOW, I WAS THERE WHEN YOU DIED? that i had tears in my eyes MY TEARS CAME IN THE FORM OF RAIN THAT FELL FROM ABOVE every drop surrounded you in love I'M GLAD YOU'RE HOME WHERE YOU BELONG. you've been gone, from my loving arms, much to long DID YOU KNOW, YOU WERE SOMEONE SPECIAL IN MY EYES? that i stood in the shadows of your life THAT IT WAS I GUIDING YOU THROUGH YOUR TROUBLED TIMES guiding you to eternal life

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REMEMBER YOU CANNOT ABANDON WHAT YOU DO NOT KNOW, TO GO BEYOND YOURSELF, YOU MUST KNOW YOURSELF. (mahara)

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