CHAPTER 1
The True nature of Reality
We are only a dream of a dream This world is not what it seems We are the wind That carries the seeds We are the roots of the banyan tree We are love offered on the wing That stretches across eternity We are a chord in Life's symphony We are the silent awakening. —Tina Malia, The Silent Awakening (excerpt)
Formless and Form
One is All and All is One. Even as a little girl, this made sense to me. "We are made of stardust," declared the narrator at Morrison Planetarium. That statement rocked my world at age six, and again, ten years later, on my very first day of college.
I mused on those words—romanticized and fantasized about being made of the same stuff as the sun, moon, stars, planets, galaxies, and Universe. It was early on, but I got it: in our Universe there is the unseen and the seen—Formless and Form. I remember viewing a pie-shaped representation of the Universe, and the visible Universe was just a teeny tiny sliver of a slice. I wanted to know the Nature of Reality and the Universe.
That very moment was compelling. Several things became crystal clear to my six-year-old Self: (1) there's so much more to the Universe than what our eyes and other senses can perceive; (2) just because we cannot easily see, smell, hear, taste, touch, imagine, or give to/receive other vibrational realms, doesn't mean they don't exist; (3) we are all meant to create something out of nothing.
Throughout my childhood, I pondered about my wants while prettying-up blank sheets of paper with bright colored chalk and crayons, or sitting at my piano and making up melodies and songs. I felt such immense satisfaction in my creations, but sharing my desires often got me into trouble. Statements like I want world peace, I want to travel the world and serve humanity, or I want to be a rocket scientist, a rock star, and end all of the suffering in the world were received by my family, friends, and teachers with little enthusiasm, and even ridiculed. "Who do you think you are, Marja, wanting such selfish things?"
I was shamed for my desires, but knew in my heart of hearts: desire activates Formless into Form. My desire to color transformed blank paper into brightly decorated happy paper! My desire to physically express my feelings moved me over to my piano to create a new melody that shifted my blue feelings into expressions of beauty. It was so simple to me at the time, yet I felt alone in this knowing, there was no one with whom to share my discoveries. Over the years, I played with my wants and desires and was almost always successful; sometimes I created even better results! I didn't realize then I had tapped into the Love, Truth, and Beauty of my own Divine origin—the Divinity that most humans refuse to accept, let alone embody.
Absolute Balanced Mastery
Fast-forward to 2014. Thanks to all the brave whistleblowers more and more of us are questioning reality and waking up to the fact that this shared reality we believe to be "normal" is actually manipulated and distorted by the powers-that-wanna-be. The artificial timeline reality is in stark contrast to the true, organic ascension timeline which is the natural blossoming and evolution of human consciousness fully expressing its Divinity. The imposed false timeline reality that is presented and perpetuated in most forms of mass media is merely one dream world of possibilities because we are Infinite Divine creative energy beings in physical bodies, living in a physical Universe that is holographic in nature. Everything in existence is a part of the whole. This means that encoded within each of us is the entire blueprint of our Universe. How cool is that? Our human experience is all about creating Formless into Form. The Divine energies that we are animate our bodies so we can experience and expand this physical Universe with our creations. Our bodies are temples of our Divinity, as well as perceivers—receivers, transmitters, and decoders of all kinds of waveform energy. We decode this information through our senses. We are pure awareness. We are pure consciousness—ever being, ever evolving, and ever becoming. We are hardwired to create! God-Goddess-All-That-Is and any other name you want to call it is the Divine.
Our planet, or Gaia, is another authentic expression of the Divine in pure physicality—in existence, and in all of her seen and unseen beings, creatures, and organisms; plant, animal, rock and mineral kingdoms; waters, mountains, and lands of all terrains.
Absolute Balanced Mastery is the alignment of heart, mind, and body with the Divine; it is the harmonic synergy of the emotional, mental, and physical realms with the spiritual. This totality is the Divine and Unity Consciousness.
One Man, One Woman
We are all perfect expressions of the Divine-in-the-Flesh. This is our true foundation. There is only One Man and One Woman represented by the Divine Masculine and the Divine Feminine essences, expressing Her/ HimSelf in a male or female body. This simply means that every Man and Woman on Earth is a unique and physical manifestation of that One Man or One Woman.
Another Puppet of the Patriarchy: the false New Age
Old patriarchal paradigm: men are men; women are women; bye-bye, already.
The false New Age paradigm: men are men developing their Feminine side; women are women developing their Masculine side; bye-bye to that as well because it still reeks of patriarchy, the same hierarchical, warmongering, gender-separation conditioning inherent in the old paradigm, which splits and divides us into exclusive and disparate sides, both unworthy of acknowledging their Divinity. There is no light or dark side, only the totality of human experience, yet so many are fooled by the false New Age which is just another religious faction tricked out in airy-fairy, woo-woo, love and light notions. It promotes dangerous memes like: It's all good; Ignore the Negative, or you'll just create more; Never get angry because anger isn't a high vibration; Nothing is Real, it's all an illusion, so world events can't affect you; Just focus on what you want for yourSelf, your family, your life, your things, and ignore the suffering of the world; All is allowed; There's no such thing as good or bad; Accept everything.
And that's just the tip of the iceberg.
Honestly, over the years I tried to align with all of the above and more by trying to bullshit mySelf into higher loving thoughts, and discovered that in endeavoring to do so every fiber of my Being screamed, "What the fuck, Marja? Get real; this is mind-fucking, heartless insanity!" With my private practice focused upon facilitating emotional-energetic healing of the most egregious of sexual trauma, in my concerted efforts to apply the false New Age tenet of It's all good onto the many violent acts of pedophilia and ritualized rape and torture of women, I could no longer ignore getting hoodwinked by all the love and light fairy dust and waiting for the angels to save us nonsense. We need to save ourSelves and take action, already!
Is there a true New Age movement? Yes, there is, and the difference between the true New Age and false New Age is that the latter promotes only "love and light" and encourages the avoidance of facing up to any kind of suffering, anything dark, and anything deemed negative, which is an insidious, well-marketed strategy to keep its followers addicted to chasing their tails in an expensive and exhausting endeavor to attain the false New Age's promises of Instant Spiritual Enlightenment, followed by immediate ascension to a more refined and civilized, light-filled, alternative Earth, populated by only beautiful people—all this, plus all the eternal love, perfect sex, happiness, and abundance reserved for those truly enlightened and deserving.
The term lightworker often feeds into spiritual egotism, more divisiveness, and the nonsense of "special-ness." All hierarchies, even a New Age one (think Ascended Masters, for example), are disempowering programs of control that systematically hack into our true Divine Natures, and suck away at our creative energies for their own purposes. They limit our possibilities and have us look up to them. Everything in existence comes from the same source. We are the Ascended Masters. We are all sovereign Beings.
Big Fat Lies
The old patriarchy and false New Age paradigms are Big Fat Lies. They prevent us from realizing and embodying the Truth of our already Divine selves and imprison us in a perpetual state of panicked chasing and striving. They keep us trapped in the illusion of separation and torture us with feelings of Self-hate and unworthiness—nothing we do or say is ever good enough. They enslave us with helplessness; afflict us with chronic overwhelm, dread, self-doubt, and indecision. Eventually, we either give up and hunker down in resignation or become so hardened that we become heartless and lose touch with empathy. Happiness becomes a fantastical phantom, seemingly only accessible and available to those "special" folk, while forever dangling in front of us regular humans—unattainable and elusive, yet so close, or so far away.
A word of caution: while there are many beings in other realms and realities of various levels of consciousness, be careful in your alliances with other dimensional beings. Do not allow yourSelves to be fooled, or suffer the consequence and dangers of entity possession. Discrimination goes a long way in maintaining your spiritual center, personal safety, and autonomy. Take back your power and declare your sovereignty, my beloveds!
Masculine-Feminine 101
The new paradigm cocreated by the Heart-Based New Humanity brings us back to the pure cosmic perspective of yang and yin, respectively—Formless (Masculine energy) and Form (Feminine energy). The entire Universe is held in Masculine energy. Feminine energy dances in this vast space as all forms: light and dark, our sensations and feelings; Man and Woman; Gaia's flora, fauna, and all her elements; planets, stars, and galaxies, etc. Masculine energy is not a physical man, just like Feminine energy is not a physical woman. Every male and female body is a unique collective manifestation of this totality of Divine Cosmic energies with varying Masculine and Feminine frequencies coursing through. Our energetic totality is the Holy Trinity of Father-Mother-Spirit/Child.
Whether physically male or female, our Masculine energy is the aspect of the energetic body that excels at gifting-giving, doing, taking action and engaging in Self-defense (which may include the use of deadly force), focusing, being grounded and steadfast in active stillness, being out in the world, and holding space via teaching and imparting higher consciousness. Masculine energy projects stillness and/or directs toward someone, something, somewhere; it goes higher, deeper.
Regardless of gender, our Feminine energy is the aspect that represents the qualities of love, light, intuition, imagination, creativity, and beauty. The Feminine in all her forms desires to feel and be seen, to shine and radiate. Our Feminine receives Divine Inspiration and becomes pregnant with ideas. We can think of desires, dreams, wants, and needs as cosmic creative energy initiating movement of Formless into Form—all forms. She nests and softens. She receives, engages in non-aggression, opens, magnetizes, takes in, and allows us to be in our senses. The Feminine is actually in charge of our ability to manifest greater abundance and prosperity in every aspect of life through allowing and receiving.
Our Inner Masculine evolves through challenge, focus, anchored stillness, and Inspired Action; our Inner Feminine evolves through praise, being, and opening. The integration of the Inner Masculine and Feminine evolves through enjoying, balancing the inherent suffering of the world-at-large with pleasure.
In every Man and Woman, the Inner Masculine wants to know He is on track and doing what's for the best and highest good in any given situation. The Inner Feminine lets the Inner Masculine know He's on target or off track with deep respect, compassion, empathy, appreciation, and intuitive wisdom, because She is intimately connected to what She truly desires—how She wants to live Her life, Her values, and She's clear in Her communication to the Inner Masculine. The sacred marriage of Inner Feminine to Inner Masculine allows and anchors our ability to stand rock-solid in our own power and sovereignty, rather than constantly seeking other-esteem or approval outside of ourSelves or leaking out our power and energies to another.
There are shadow aspects of the Masculine and Feminine. The Masculine can be authoritarian, controlling, domineering, overbearing, patriarchal, judgmental, critical, dismissive, brutish, and violent. The Feminine can be chaotic, flaky, emotionally over-the-top, helpless, vain, immobilized, and indecisive. In defense of the Feminine (for both my brothers and sisters), consider She as the metaphor for light. At any given time, light changes from moment to moment—brightening, darkening, or becoming shadowed temporarily by clouds. The Feminine is often referred to as crazy—especially when S/He says one thing one minute and something completely different the next. This is the changeable, flowing nature of the Feminine—She is not insane and we are pure being and eternal—in a perpetual state of becoming and evolving.
Some of us express a balanced 50:50 ratio of Masculine to Feminine energy, while others lean toward a more Masculine ratio of energy or a higher Feminine ratio of energy. These ratios and frequencies are not static; they change from one moment to the next, depending on the presenting circumstance. A man or woman who mainly expresses high Masculine energy through their workday as a high-powered, extremely focused litigation attorney may express a higher Feminine frequency once they are at home, relaxed, and away from their work environment.
More and more of us are becoming quite adept at expressing our Feminine and Masculine creative energies freely, and in totality, interchanging these gifts as life and the Now directs. The most important relationship for each of us to heal, cultivate, nourish, and master is the relationship between our Inner Feminine and Masculine. Mastering this core relationship gives us the awakened qualities of balance, equanimity, discernment, and access to total command and physical embodiment of our true Divine Nature.
The Seven Senses of Our Sensual-Sensorial World
Being true to the Now, and to our true nature as Infinite Loving Awareness and Consciousness having a human experience, gives us access to the full range of human experience in all forms of Form on this physical plane.
Right-brain dominance is expressed through the majority of humanity giving up, OMing or OPTing out of full-on engagement and living life to the fullest, instead falling into habituated hopelessness, indifference, or nonaction. The powers-that-wanna-be have purposefully programmed and manipulated the rest of humanity through their left-brain dominant agendas resulting in the addiction to doing, doing, doing; a lack of empathy, and a willful ignorance to the suffering of any and all living beings, including the planet; the mind and intellect taking precedence over the heart and feelings; and our being disconnected from what is beyond the five senses. As a result, the validity and power of our sixth sense—our intuition, along with our innate care and generosity as empowered and expressed through our seventh sense of gifting-giving and receiving—have not only been devalued, but judged as indulgent, and encouraged to be completely disregarded and forgotten.
Imagine the collective power we would wield by fully engaging our intuition and our generosity—the ability to freely gift-give and receive. The powers-that-wanna-be certainly do not wish for humanity to awaken to their full power.
